I just want to drown myself out in senseless music. Not caring what others around me are saying. I just want to detach myself and slowly kill this "self".

Is there a way for me to lose all my memories? Could I lose all my memories and restart? Could I at least mentally end this. I just want to restart and forget about things like beauty, intelligence or being in this rat race. I want to forget who I am sometimes, forget that I am "existing".

"There is no point turning around. It's just you and me here."
"But you are me.."
"Yes indeed."