I'm annoyed. I really want to go on a holiday nowww :(

Been in a pretty weird mood lately. I feel frustrated for no reason? And when I'm frustrated, I get into a state of not being able to focus on my work. Okay, I actually know why I'm frustrated..I just feel as though the effort that I put in might mean nothing at all. I just feel so disheartened when I think of how some people seem to be able to get results without putting in much hard work.

I can't help but feel scared. What if all my hard work is for naught? Everyone says that its better to have put in your all than none at all but that's not enough for me. I really need the results. It's not an understatement. At this point, getting results is a necessity. And I feel as though I keep stumbling along this path of achieving results. In the first place, I don't even know if I've been running towards it. Or have I only been trudging along?

I don't know. It's really not the time for self-doubt now but I can't chase these annoying feelings away. 

The road has ended.

I stare at the path dumbfounded.

I can't understand it. Am I dreaming? Is that why the road has ended? Have I come to the end of my dreams? If so, why can't I wake up.

No matter how many times I shut and open my eyes, the scene doesn't change.

Hysteria rises inside of me.

Thinking that I am the Shepard, I strove to lead the way.
In truth, I am merely a lost sheep.