When I was younger, I used to wonder why I was born.

The more I thought about it, the more depressed I felt because I realised that there was really no meaning in being alive. I didn't have the power to fight for what I want. I couldn't protect those I love. I couldn't do anything for the Earth. I felt helpless as I watched humans spiral towards choas.

During that period of time, I lost my will to live, but I didn't tell anyone. There was no point because I knew that no one could answer the question as to why we were born. At times, I even felt that we were puppets in a play. We were puppets made to fight against each other, for the pleasure of some other existence that watched with a smirk.

How hollow I thought. Life is so hollow. Sometimes, I even felt as though this body didn't belong to me. But as I grew older, I finally found an aim in life.

I want to pursue happiness.

It sounds like a very simple aim, but it's harder then it seems.

Fallen angel, won't you cry for me?

AHH! I JUST SAW THE CUTEST THING EVER!

Go to this link! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOV18WKNtgI&feature=player_embedded

Ok, I'm usually not like this, but this is just TOO CUTE!

"You're not an adult yet so we can force you to go Australia."

Do you know how I felt when I heard this sentence? I always believed that the both of you respected my freedom but maybe I was being too idealistic. I almost felt like crying when I heard this sentence.

If only I was a working adult, then I would be able to choose where to live at the very least. I wouldn't be at the mercy of those I depend on.

Do you think that I'm a bad kid? Do you think that I'm being ungrateful to them? All I want is just the freedom to choose my path. I'm not trying to be rebellious, it's just that I can never be a obedient kid.

Like paper airplanes, my dreams glided momentarily,
before spiralling towards oblivion.