I aplogise for my previous post.

I was being unfair to my parents.

Anyway, on to other things. I just found out today that Michael Jackson died yesterday.

One of the greatest artists of all time has died. All those who don't give a damn should slap themselves.

In memory of Michael Jackson(1958-2009)
May he find salvation from this reprise. His life was a success and a tragedy.
But his music shall stay and burn even brighter.

Another star has died,
So let the dawn bring hope.

I feel scared.

The upcoming mid-years really feel like judgement day to me. All the best I say.

I really don't understand why some people want to compete with me especially when they are friend. Does the rat race hold much more importance than a friendship?

Get a life you retards.

Sometimes, I feel that people who don't inquire are heartless.

Say "Ah".

Queen -- Bohemian Rhapsody with lyrics:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qe9PSliDG4M

Please go and listen to this song. It has a very unique style and it's one of the best songs I have ever heard. The lyrics are also very meaningful because it was written when the lead singer Freddie Mercury had AIDS. Furthermore, although he was a male, he wanted to be a female.

Although the band never revealed the meaning of the song, we can still infer from the lyrics. The songs from Queen that people of our age will be more familiar with is "We will rock you" and "We are the Champions".

Happy listening.

Every start is an end and yet,
every end is a start.

Tchaikovsky's Seranade for Strings movement 1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=su5sA35TcR8

Please listen to it. It would mean alot for me.

What's the use of holding on when you're letting go?

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To a certain someone: I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you whenever you really need someone. But hang in there. And just so you know, even if your parents don't find you good enough, at least there are other people who feel that you are good. Maybe your parents feel that you can acheive much more than you are currently getting and thats why they want you to work harder. Who knows? Anyway, no matter what, your parents still love you.

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This is what we deserve but not what we need.

It's time to buck up. I can't go on living like this. It's time to find an aim in life and put in my all. I have to leave it all behind and get on with life.

I need to live.

But I'm dying and slipping out of the rat race. I'm falling and failing. Badly.

I have lost all of the confidence that took so long to accquire. Now it's all gone. Just like that. I don't have the confidence to score well anymore. I'm plagued by my past glories and bleak future.

One day, a friend asked me:

"Do you have depression?"

I wonder. Maybe I should go and take a medical examination.

Requiem for the soul.

I actually wrote this on Friday but I didn't publish it cause the post just felt so ridiculous afterwards. But yea, here it is. I'll probably remove it someother time. Or maybe not. It depends.

I have a whole bunch of tests next week. So what am i still doing here?

I firggin condemn myself.

I know that I'll probably regret saying this but don't give me birthday presents anymore. Unless you truly view me as an important part of your life. Otherwise, don't waste your money. Don't give me gifts just because you think that you are obliged to do so. Don't give me gifts thinking that it's going to warrant my charity for you. Cause it doesn't work that way. Please. I don't want any of you to feel regretful when you buy a present for me.

What is there to celebrate about my birthday? I'm just a nobody who's going to die many years later and leave behind no stain in history. Save your money to buy presents for other people cause their more important. I'm not important. I never was. Not to you. Not to her.

I remember that there was one time I told my section that if I ever found out that I had cancer, I would probably only let my family know. It's not worth it to tell other people cause they're not going to care and they will most likely forget about me once they start families of their own. In the end, I would have to fight it on my own.

Damn it. Why am I even writing this? What shit does it mean to people? Lord save humanity. This race of beings that have no empathy.

Redemption at the cost of loyalty.